I want to delete my facebook account but i feel like there is some value in keeping it around. like, somehow, all the awful click-bait posts are actually helping me realize something about myself. every time i see a fucking buzzfeed story i want to click “hide all from buzzfeed” so bad, but I can’t. I can’t do it. I don’t even read the articles anymore, but I feel like I need to see the people i went to high school with share more and more shitty articles, just so i know how shitty the articles are.
somehow the new wave shit is worse. upworthy might have popularized the style, but there’s some REAL bullshit going on right now.
i’m just staring at this right now. a real adult shared this on his facebook news feed. If i look at it for long enough and in detail and with the right amount of context i start to realize that it is beautiful. look it’s just a thumbs up in the middle of a cocacola logo, and then they put in a default aftereffect ripped paper thing, so they could put the thumb in. this is honestly one of the best things i’ve seen. then i remember that someone wants me to click this shit to learn the answer to “the reason why” and i start to get upset because i feel like it’s some sort of attack on my mind. which it is, all of these links are.
what might be the most amazing thing about this is that my facebook friends are WILLINGLY sharing this WITHOUT COMMENTARY. if they do add commentary, it’s often completely useless, or encouraging you to “fall” for the clickbait.
Like these are real people who went to my high school. they’re 19-21 years old. The only thing about this link is that it gives away the secret in the description. something about a ball pit. some group put people in a ball pit and then filmed it so that it could go viral. or something.
why do these people want me to click this? i know what happens when I do. I get linked to a video (because nobody would read an article) and then i’d watch the video and be forced to feel some pseudo-emotions (sadness probably) and i guess that’s what life is about now.
Do i mind being forced to feel emotions and stuff? well kind of. I think i enjoyed seeing that woman being able to hear for the first time. i didn’t want to cry though, even though i probably could have. it probably was beautiful for her and the people there, but just something about watching that through a video and feeling like someone is trying to manipulate that reaction from me gets me annoyed. or maybe i just buy into the masculinist bs in american/western culture where men can’t cry. To me, there is much more beauty in the idea that real people got to feel the raw emotion pictured in that scene. Anyhow, back on topic.
I guess maybe i just hope there’s some way to subvert this stuff or destroy it. i feel like i need to do something to it. writing for feedbuzz was helpful when i did that to just absolutely demolish everything about buzzfeed.